95 - Radhas Discourse to Uddhava 

Narayana said- On hearing the words of Uddhava, Radhika, regained her consciousness, she than occupied the gem-studded lion throne and expressed the pain of her heart with very sweet words. At that point of time, the cowherdesses were serving her moving the white fly-whisks. 

Radhika sad- О son you go back to Mathura, but don't forget me while enjoying the comforts there, because if you do so there would be no other sin greater than, that in the universe. You go to Mathura and narrate my words to lord Krishna who is all blissful and try to bring him to me. 

Which one of the women has faced the? separation of such a type of husband in her life? Is there anyone else more grief-stricken then? myself? What type of consolation are you? providing me? It is no more proper to console me. О Uddhava, without the no consequence. The love with Hari, the fortune, offering of new respect every day, inaccessible love, speaking in seclusion and new physical union are always remembered by me. There is nothing else in my mind. Waking up during the night from sleep, my suffering is increased. 

O son, you will surely redeem me since I am drowning in the ocean of grief. There is no merit greater for a person in the universe than to provide protection to someone. It is greater than the merit of visiting the holy places. My mind is quite difficult to console and I am unable to console it. I always devote my mind at the lotus-like feet of lord Krishna, his virtues reputation, love. Drowning in the ocean of love again and again, my mind does not remain stable and therefore it remains always unstable. But you tell me how many of the damsels had to face this type of grief, without me which one of the damsels could realise the grief of my separation from Krishna.

This type of grief was known either to Sita or to myself. There is no one else in the three worlds whose mind is so painful as compared to me. Can any woman believe in my pain after looking at me? O son Uddhava, which one of the, ladies has faced such a type of grief.

There is no one else among the woman who is so badly suffering like Radha, who is suffering from separation from his lord and is devoid of fortune and is completely grief-stricken. There is no one else among the damsels feeling more painful at heart than Radhika.

In the universe the husband happens to be kalpavruksha who was achieved by me, but have been deprived of the same because of the cruel destiny.

With the look at his lotus-like feet as well as the face like the moon and his costumes, my life, my birth and my love has been successful.

With the hearing of whose name all the five pranas become activated and sprout like flowers and the soul is filled with affection, the one who touched me at the time of conjugal pleasure and with that I enjoyed the glory the three worlds. How can I forget such a lord by getting any amount of riches?

The one who is victorious over the three worlds; is quite virtuous and has been created by Brahma or who happens to be the creator of the Brahma, who is the bestower of all the riches, is more peaceful than kalpavruksha, is the lord of Lakshmi, quite charming the lord of the universe, the seed of all besides bring the supreme soul and the lord. He happens to be my husband. How can 1 forget him by receiving any amount of riches? The one whose beauty cannot be compared with the moon, the god of love and Ashvinikumara or in other worlds, who else is incomparable in the three worlds in so far as this qualities are concerned and whose lotus-like feet are adored by Brahma, Shiva and Sesha, how can I forget such a lord by getting any amount of riches.

Those who visualise his pleasant form even in dream, they start meditating upon him I throughout the day and night continuously disowning everything. By the virtue of whom, the mountains are turned into water and the dry wood becomes fluid, the dried trees, start sprouting and are laiden with flowers, the wind j stops and the sun, moon and ocean stand in j devotion. O son, how can I forget such a type of husband by getting any amount of riches, Feeling panicky of whom, the wind blows, the sun bums, the clouds, pour rains, the fire burns, the death roams about among the creatures, with the fear of whom the trees sprout timely and the ocean, the planet, the sages and the gods engaged themselves in their respective duties, the one who is the death for time, appears as the destroyer in the form of Shiva and happens to be the lord of Brahma. The one who is independent and himself is the form of the soul, how can I forget such a type of lord by getting any amount of riches. O devotee of the lord, I don’t have the knowledge to turn my face from him. No intellectual can console me, Savitri, Sarasvati, Vedas, post-Vedic literature, the ascetics the noble people the gods, the serpent Ananta having a thousand hoods, Brahma the creator of the Vedas, Shiva the teacher of the yogis and Ganesha are unable to console me.

The one who is visible, his movement could attract some one but the one who is invisible and without any path who can visualise his movement. The good or bad or pleasure or pain are over with the passage of time, all. the elements are controlled by the time, which cannot avert. O son, you get up and go to the city of the Mathura, since you are anxious to go to Mathura. I understand that it is difficult to remain without Krishna, which is always painful. The one who is separated from him, has always to suffer from pain.

Reaching there you will meet the moon-faced Krishna whose sight removes birth, death and old age. At these words of Radhika and finding her suffering from the pain of the separation from Krishna, Uddhava cried aloud.